Apparently, cheese enchiladas are choking hazards.

I smell like tanning(: I had a great, long, hilarious conversation with Andrea after she came home early. I'm going to get CPR certified because she's had to do the heimlich maneuver on Mindy 4 times! (she's the youngest of the two girls I nanny, and the spunkiest.) Apparently, cheese enchiladas are choking hazards... Andrea also told me that she's been blogging about going into illegal slave labor and is going to have me start cook ALLL their meals and cleaning the house everyday. I adore that family sooo much.(:

I have two fords in mind to purchase and I WILL have purchased one of the two by the end of the week. They are both two doors. (Which I do not like AT ALL) The old truck is SO me though, it's just cooky and I could totally see myself in it. It doesn't have a back seat, it's just a three seater. (Which I prefer to the car where my passengers would be forced to crawl into the back.) But it also doesn't have a radio in it either. The seller said he was trying to get one in it this week, but if he doesn't, it's a NO deal, no questions. Now, the little car has better gas mileage I'm sure, leather interior, and cassette player/radio. It's a little more than the truck, but I think it'd probably be safer and more practical. I'm SO not practical though... Whatever, if it'll make my mom more secure about me going places then I'm down.

My day has been pretty splendid overall.(: I'm a bit conflicted though... I've been breaking down barriers like crazy and loving it. I feel like I'm finally becoming someone new where I am, and I don't wanna miss out on the opportunities that may be presented. But, I also know that at Newcastle I will always be "Rachel Talley, The Goodie" and that's not really a good definition of who I really am. So, the only way to find myself and start completely fresh is to go somewhere new where people are trying to figure out, "who is this girl?" just as much as I am. I was talking about this with one of my good friends, ryan. And he told me this: "It all comes down to what you're fighting for. At Newcastle everyone obviously already knows you, so you're fighting to change and refresh your reputation. Whereas at Blanchard you'd be fighting to get known in general." So, I asked myself, what's more important: having people know you, but know a lie, OR not having as many people know you as well, but know the REAL you? That's not even a question... Everything became crystal clear after that. My heart is in Blanchard, that's where I need to be. I know that now. It won't be easy because I'm already so attached to everyone and everything in Newcastle, but doing what's right isn't easy.

This is me taking a stand for myself... If you could see my heart and how often I stood for others, you'd understand how critical it is that this happens.

Well, I got homework and I need to eat something.

Still Breathing,
Rach.