We. Are. Going. To. State.

I don't think that anyone in my life truly understands how overly happy and excited I am about this. Zack might. The first thing Mrs. Queen told me after we striked the stage was, "I felt like I was watching a broadway play." We came alive on that stage; it was magical. I've never ever done anything like that and it went pretty close to perfectly. You know that feeling you get once you accomplish something that you had no clue you could actually accomplish? Yeah, I got that. I feel like I could really puch myself and be on broadway if I wanted. Do you know how incredible that would be? The feeling you get when you are on that stage is something that cannot be replaced by anything else. It's better than any drug or high. One of the best movies that describes this feeling is "Me and Orson Wells".



In one scene, Orson says, "I recognize the look: the bone deep understanding that your life is so utterly without meaning that simply to survive you have to reinvent yourself. Because if people can't find you, they can't dislike you. You see, if I can be Brutus for 90 minutes tonight- I mean, really be him, from the inside out- then for 90 minutes I get this miraculous reprive from being myself. That's what you see in every great actor's eyes."

It's like waking from a dream. You come off the stage and are jolted back into reality with a soft but startling release of energy. The adrenaline that you run on is ridiculously concuming. The accomplishment and satisfaction that you recieve for succeeding in something that you worked so hard towards is overwhelming. And it's not just the feeling of satisfaction or the emotional high that it gives you that makes it as good as it is. The other thing that makes it worth while is the crowd: the laughs, the applause, the gasps and sighs, the quiet parts, and the congradulations and commendments recieved afterwards. All these things are what really seal the deal.

Which leads me back into my princess thing. The day of homecoming, I felt like a princess: nothing less. Yesterday, I felt like a queen: nothing less. And sure it makes me feel important and loved and appreciated, and maybe I do enjoy the limelight too much. However, I do not see the harm in taking pleasure in being noticed. I do not see anything wrong with letting myself feel like royalty. Every girl should experience that feeling of admiration and beauty. (: Every girl should get to be a princess. My heart is in this. My passion is devoted, and I'm am so excited to see where the wind will blow me if I'll let it.

Here are my recent accomplishments and dreams:
-Yesterday, our One-Act recieved Second Place at Regionals and is being sent on to the state competition, which is being held on the 29th for the those of you who would like to attend. [I would like to mind you that we (a public, underfunded arts, school) ranked second to Classen (a highly funded arts school, dedicated to performing arts). All I have to say is: Pin Stripes...]

-Additionally, I recieved the second slot on the All Star Cast! I'm extremely excited about this as well. (:

-Lastly, I feel very honored that Tyler Heilaman called me last night and wanted to inform Zack and I about Courts Mountain.

Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart, to everyone and anyone who has been a supporter through this.
My heart is smiling. (:
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